Something that ISN'T four sentences long.

I've noticed that i'm beginning to fall into a bad habit of brevity in my updates. So I will henceforth (atleast in this post) make a strenuous effort in putting some body in this blog.

So it feels as if absolutely nothing, and a lot have happened to me at the same time. Nothing life changing, but while part of me is discouraged, I already have 4 or 5 different avenues that I'm exploring for jobs (most of them gig-by-gig sort of jobs. But hey, thats theatre) and I shouldn't be as worried as I am feeling. I've done a lot of sitting at home, going out to interview, audition, or spend time with my family.

It's been like vacation in a way.

My sister is much too generous, I'm almost living here for free. When I finally got some cash I handed her some because I've been eating her food and stuff; hopefully that will ease my conscience, atleast for a while.

Let's see... that master electrician job is looking more and more bleak as a wait for a response from SF Opera. They seemed interested in the get go, but when she(the woman who was hiring) met me and found out my age, she seemed less and less interested in hiring me. Her silence these past few days have been quite loud. But who am I kidding? I'm only 21 years old, I haven't even graduated college, I wasn't even aiming that high. I suppose I should be flattered that my resume speaks so well for my ability to do work like that. Now I just need to get older, right?

The 10,000 Eyeballs Production movie project-thing-that-I-can't-accurately-name, looks promising. I will be working for free, but I really hope I will get the chance to meet people that aren't older friends of my mother or something. That's something else that worries me, I suppose. I'm really hoping for my trip here to be something that will help me grow more into my self... but I don't see myself evolving if I have no where to go or no one to meet. I mean I've met a few people, friends of my sister... a few random conversations here and there. I have to keep telling myself not to rush it. If I force something like this then I'm just going to end up frustrated and get stalked by someone or something.

I may not have to work for my uncle on that houseboat. My mom returned from Belgium the day before yesterday (Duh-da-da-DUUUUUUH) and she might have landed me a job with a sausage place (SWEET) that is next door to a bar.

So, I suppose that's a large enough update that covers all the bases...